You are six months old today. How did this happen? I think my calendar is broken.
Without ever speaking a word, you have the ability to remind me of the important things in life. You have taught me to live for the moment. It doesn’t matter how our dirty floor bothers me, or how it’s 4 pm and I still haven’t figured out dinner, your presence brings me back to “now”. You’ve taught me to forget the less important things, and treasure the moments we have together.
Some days I find that my experience with your brother makes taking care of you an easier task. I have an idea on how to breastfeed, how to bathe a slippery baby, etc. But every so often, you remind me that you are different from your brother. I appreciate that reminder. You are your own person with your own preferences. I need to respect that, and listen to your needs.
When I look at you, I am filled with awe and gratitude. Only God could have made something as wonderful as you. I think you have my eyes, and your dad’s everything else. I can never get tired of starring at your beautiful face. When you smile, I just melt into a big puddle.
I love how you used to stick up both pinky fingers when I nurse you. I love how you wake up happy and babble in your crib. I love how you giggle when your brother throws something in the air. I love how you suck on my chin and slobber all over my face. I love how you took up pureed food like you’ve done this before. I even love the way you squawk when you’re tired.
You will never know how much impact you have had on me. I looked forward to your arrival with great eagerness, and now savour every minute I have with you. You’ve given me a chance to step back from a career and re-evaluate my life. You make me constantly ask myself what decisions to make so I can be the best mom for you. To say you have changed my life is an understatement.
Thank you for letting me be your mommy. I wholeheartedly adore everything about you, and I am so thankful for you.