I guess it is typical during the first week back to feel very out of synch with everybody else. I learned it after my first mat leave that the world moved on without me, and I need to put in the effort to catch up.
New technologies were implemented and new policies were brought in place while I was away. I had to learn some really basic things like how to make a phone call with the new system, and some really annoying things like how to fill out a gazillion new forms and get multiple approvals before I can do any work for a client.
If you told me 4 years ago I was going to have two kids, and that I was going to be crying in my office because I missed them, I’d tell you that you’re nuts. My career was everything to me, and I would gladly sell my soul for it. How things have changed! The little buggers in my life got me wrapped around their little fingers. I missed both kids all day. With Joshua, I feel like at least I can explain to him where I was and he would understand. It’s hard to explain to Savanna where I’ve been all day.
Cliff was fantastic with the kids and making all the meals. I never doubted his ability to make everything work. I was surprised, however, that he was very determined to get Joshua to eat some vegetables. If you know my struggles in that area, you would know that I’ve given up and often make a separate meal for Joshua because he won’t eat what we eat. Cliff told Joshua the theme of the week was carrots, took him to buy carrots, and made all sorts of dishes with carrots in it. Joshua actually ended up eating a bit of carrots this past week. That was a huge accomplishment.
Savanna obviously bonded with Cliff this week. When I was holding her today, she actually reached out to Cliff and wanted him to hold her. She has never done that before. While it broke my heart a little, I actually feel much more comforted by the thought that she’s bonding with daddy, and that she’s just as happy being with him.