I’ve had the luxury of having Cliff at home with me since Savanna was born.  So technically we have two kids, but I’ve never really had to deal with both of them all day on my own.  I’ve done a few hours here and there, but that wasn’t so bad when I knew Cliff will be home in a few hours.  When we’re all home, Cliff mainly takes care of Joshua, and I mainly take care of Savanna.

BUT TODAY!  Today Cliff went to work.  Yeah.  He started a part time job today and I was all by myself with both kids.  I started bracing myself since last night, thinking that I might just die in the process of having both kids to myself.  Despite the fact that millions of other women before me have dealt with multiple kids on their own all day long, you see, I am special.  I am going to somehow spontaneously self combust!  I don’t know how people do this.  I mean, how do you humanly manage a demanding toddler with a bladder that’s like a ticking time bomb, while breastfeeding your baby, and at the same time put lunch on the table without forgetting you haven’t peed in 5 hours?

Luckily today also happened to be the day that our postpartum doula was spending the afternoon with us, so I didn’t die.  I had the kids from about 9 am to 1 pm by myself, then she was here from 1 to 5 pm, saving my giant butt in a giant way.  I even managed to have a short nap and take a shower while she was here.  Cliff came home around 6 pm.  I did survive today, but this luxury of having her here with me isn’t going to continue forever, and won’t be for all the days that Cliff goes to work.  I have absolutely no idea how I am going to handle being myself all day with two kids.

Do you have tips and tricks you can share with me?  I am freaking out (can you tell?)!

Captured during a moment of non-chaos today.