My baby is two months old today!

It’s hard to believe how fast time flies, and how much he has grown. He is now 13 lb and 12 oz!

We went back to see Dr. L today and got Joshua’s first set of immunization. I have been dreading this day for a whole week. He received THREE shots! He cried pretty hard for less than 10 seconds, and then slowed down to a small sob. Myself, on the other hand, was sucking back tears as hard as I can, but still cannot contain myself. It breaks my heart to see him in pain. As soon as we came out of the doctor’s office, he fell asleep in the car seat.

For the rest of the day, Joshua nursed a lot, and was fussy as expected. After some baby Tylenol, he seemed to be better. Cliff gave him a bath and a massage tonight and that made him quite happy.

We didn’t do anything to celebrate the two months mark, partly because we were prepared to just spend the day soothing him, and partly because we are just bagged.

Dr. L gave us advice completely contradicting what the lactation consultant said. Dr. Lee said we should feed Joshua as much as he will take, and not restrict his formula intake. This really frustrated me. Who am I supposed to listen to when I am getting contradicting advice? The doctor who received medical training? Or the lactation consultant who specializes in lactation related issues? Can’t someone just tell me what to do so I don’t screw up my son’s life?

Motherhood is a very humbling experience. I went from thinking I know quite a bit, to thinking that I know nothing at all. Even the medical community is giving contradicting advice. I think it’s time that I just use my maternal instinct and figure out what would be best for my own son! I think I’ll increase his formula by a bit (going from 60 ml to 70 ml) and see how he does.